iv realized

ive realized, love makes you crazy.
simple as that.
ive realized jealousy is a cover up of ones poor self-image.
but everyone feels it sometimes.
ive realized lashing out at anger can lead to a differant outcome than wanted.
its better to take things easy.
ive realized apologizing doesnt always fix things.
ive realized our elders are not always right.
we need to think for ourselves.
feeling can linger, you need time.
ive realized sadness always lingers around in your mind.
the feeling is hopefully overcome by happiness.
ive realized just how powerful those three words can be.
the best feeling you can possibly have.
ive realized everybody has done something they wish they could take back.
you cant take it back, so move past it and leave it behind.
ive realized life is short, and yes admittidly i know i will die.
so why not live it with who i want and the way i want.
ive realized im just another broken being with a croocked past in this cruel world.
but i have a boy who has taken me as i am, and for that i am in debt.
nobody is perfect.

The wall

Built of sticks
To protect what’s behind
Broken down easily
Then built back up
Stronger this time with wood
Decomposed over time
Tightly kept secrets exposed
Built back up with solid bricks
Good luck breaking through that
Secrets trapped behind
And unwanted information out

the summer i was 13

the sun high in the sky
rays heating up the sand
under our bare feet
waves crashing
children playing
and screaming
adults lounging
spreading sunblock
on burned shoulders
mini streams and shark teeth
jellyfish and shells
washing up on the shore
the taste of the
putrid salty water in your mouth
summer vacation has just began

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Filthy Perfection

She sits in the dark room
remembering the feeling
oh how she longs for it
she wants it back

The feeling of the destruction
that was put upon her body
she shouldnt shes shamed
but whats once more

its so perfect
yet so filthy

3-25-10

life right now is going good. way better in the past few weeks than it has been. im used to my daddy not being here and i get to talk to him online and on the phone. oh and that reminds me i have to make him cookies and send it to him lol. i started dating my friend aaron. we have kind of had a thing going on for about a year now. we both have liked eachother but he has a baby and my rents didnt like him and we didnt talk for a few months. but my mom has let him come around and is alright with him now. my daddy still doesnt approve now thou so idk. but stephanie his ex and nikis moms dad and step mom are getting temp. custody of niki and they live down in algonac so aaron gets to see baby as much as he wants. he is the cutest kid in the world i love him prettymuch like my own. ever since ive been dating aaron my life has been turned around and great. oh and yesterday when i got home from aarons house my mom informed me she bought crash test dummies tickets for in may. woooot im soo excited lol. its gonna be so fun she is taking me andrea and also my two little sisters. its gonna be so fun. spring break im supposed to camp with aaron and some friends but im not sure its gonna happen cuz my friend terahs mom is making her go to north carolina with her and wont tell her for how long so we cant really plan anything we were gonna go easter weekend but oh well. my mom didnt care but when i told my daddy he wasnt to happy that i was going w/ aaron. i dont get why he is so bothered by him. just because he is a teen dad doesnt mean less of him we all make mistakes his just happend to be big. my rents had me at the same age and dropped out of high school at least aarons going to finish school and has somthing planned out for after high school. for goodness sake my dad never even went back and graduated my mom did after my sister was born. granted he is trying and its hard for him to go back to school becuase he cant read. he is trying his hardest and im proud of him. anyways offtrack there a bit. aaron is a good dude and would never think of hurting me so my dad needs to let go. i think he just doesnt want to lose his baby girl but my daddy is and always will be the most important man of my life. my mom said she was having such a hard time cuz she thinks aaron is the man i will choose to marry. but idk who im going to marry im still in high school. and my rents keep telling me he is going to get me prego and keep telling me not to be a teen mom but im not that stupid im not my parents i have a plan for my life right now, not a set plan but an idea which is how it should be and they need to respect my desicion because im 18 and im almost out of high school they cant protect me all my life.

if you ever

i know how you say your here stay, but...
if ever left me i would
take your beloved PS3
and stomp it to a million pieces

i would take all your Cd's
scratch them, with the strings
of your bass guitar
then break each Cd in two

i would call CPS
and make up a long story
about how dangerous you are
that you can no longer see your baby boy

i would take your precious
guitars, bass and amp
and kill them with a crow bar
right before your eyes

...but you know what?
these are all lies
things i say to scare you from stray
i would never harm you.

if you left me i would tell you
how much i loved you everyday