10 things to the way of life

it might be hard sometimes
but if you want to live life
to the fullest you must
keep your friends and family close
but keep your enemies closer

stay away from drugs
no need to go and mess up
something that has taken
years to establish and develope

don’t get into trouble
why ruin any chances
you may have in the future
is something so stupid worth it

do what your supposed to
why would you ignore everything
that could be to your benefit
or the benefit of loved ones

go on to college and get
a diploma because you cant
get anywhere in life these days
if you don’t have one

travel wile your young and
before you settle and have kids
you need to have a chance to do
what you want it may never happen again

accomplish your goal before
you commit to anyone else because
you are more important right now
otherwise you may not live a complete life

enjoy your life and laugh
if you don’t like life why live it
you need to laugh that is a necessity
without laughter how do you enjoy anything

live everyday as if it were your last
with a conscience of course because
this isn’t your real last day on earth
but you cant live sheltered

make sure to be yourself
this is the most important thing in life
you cant enjoy or accomplish anything
unless you are yourself

my names

long ago i was "paranoid android"
past years i have been named "smooth criminal"
ive recently taken the name "disposable teen"
i am currently, to one, called "perfect drug"
but in truth i am "demolition lover"

my name is

my birth name is Renee
in childhood i was panic-stricken baby
in elementry i was ms. goody two shoes
in middle school i was tight-liped outcast
today i am crazy, opinionated friend
but lately i am idle gamer-computer-junkey

your future

this picture reminds me of the future. what is to come next for you? what curves will life throw at you? you can only see so far. and what you do affects your future, how you act and what your desicions in life are will ultimatly form your futrue. some of us may have a smoother way into our futrue than others and some of us may have a bigger curve to go around before our futre is set. the railroad has a curve just as like has many, its not just a straight shoot into your future. be careful not to fall off track, take your time to make it throu those curves life throws at you, after all you do have a lifetime.

obscure and uncommen words

NOUN
*preescape-act or instence of escaping
*estocada- thrust of the sward into the bull on the final stage of a bull fight
*cinderadiography- filming motion pictures throu x-ray
*charisma-fascination
*enticement-temptation
ADJECTIVES
*predominant- having power, authority, or influence over others
*swanky-elegant
*somber-dark
*lucid-giving off or reflecing light
*anaerectic- destructive
VERB
*advocated- to speak or write in favor of
*monopolized- to obtain exclusive posetion of
*

metaphores and such

*i am deep purple
*i am a triangle
*i am hop-scotch, up down and all around
*i am a panther, firece but beautiful
*i am the number three, odd
*i am a love seat, reserved to many and open to a select few
*i am a birtch tree, one of a kind;you can pick me out of a crowd easy
*i am affraid of spiders
*i am as bright as a rainbow on a clowdy day
*i am pizza, in its simplest form and in its complexity
*i am the wind, you can feel my presence as i walk in but you cant always see ME

the carnival

i really love going to the carnival. it has a ton of stupid rides and over priced tickets and food but its a fun time. i always buy a wrist band at the fish fly festival in algonac and hang out with friends. you can smell all the deep fried fatning food. and hear all the people. when you walk through the game section you have to be sure to never make any eye contact because thats how they drag you into the game lol. i love to ride the zipper, its the best ride there. when i was younger i would go on it over and over again :). also the gravatron haha last year the dude that ran the gravatron was gay and was letting like all the guys in free and my friend mike and a few others started talking to him so i got on free to lol it was fun. then later my friend kym gave me money for a wrist band for htat night and we rode rides with her sister kelly and a few other people. it was fun. i love how its by the river to. you can always go over and walk or swim on the boardwalk on a hot day its fun to go run around the carnival and then go swimming in the river. the water feels so cool on your skin when you jump in. i feel like a child when im there somtimes i love it. running around with a ton of energy wanting to ride those stupid carnival rides; that probably arent even too safe to begin with lol.

i remember...

i remember the Slayer/Marilyn Manson concert i went to. i could smell those candied sugary nuts, they smell so sweet. there were a ton of people similar to me and my style of dress. there were masses of people up on the stages. big mosh pits that im affraid to go in. the wall of death, at Mayhem fest 2009 i think it was mushroom head that had the entire hill of the dte seperate and do the wall of death and i almost got stuck right in the middle. i had to grab bryan and run up the hill so i didnt get like killed lol. it was fun. i got stuck in one wall of death but i got out pretty quickly. there is a video on youtube with me in it lmao gettin outa the wall and then some black dude resting on my shoulder so he could put his shoe on. i remember i was sitting on the rail to the hill just waiting for manson to come on. bryan and i had two big massive lemonades and we ran out so bry went to refill them and i sat there cuz i didnt want to lose our spot, i had to be as close as i could being on the hill thats not too close. there were these two dudes hitting on me when i was on bryans phone waitin for him to get back. one was wasted already before the show and the other said it was his birthday. they were sooo annoying,they were complimenting my fishnets and outfit and stuff and it was creepy i dotn think thye got that i didnt wanna tlak to them. they were asking me what i was doing after the show i was like im here with my friend bryan and they asked me like who i was there to see and i said manson :) lol and the drunk dude was all in my face like your pretty and stuff and then thye asked if i had a bf i said no dude how old are you with a wierd look on my face because they were sooo annoying. he said he was like 28 or somthing i dont remember i just remember it was pretty old for me i was like dude im only 17 lol he apoligized and tried to get the drunk dude to go and he was like no idc how old she is and the guy was like dude you have a wife and she is too young lol i thought that was pretty funny. finally bryan showed up and kill switch played. then mushroom head and we were up on the hill wile they played it was pretty crazy everyone started to throw the sod and beer and cups everything was flying through the air. it was major fun, after mushroom head; witch was supposed to be bullet btw and i was so mad that it wasnt cuz i wanted to see them. anyways after them was slayer and XD i only know two of thier songs but they were good lol and then half the people left because they were all metalheads and didnt want to see him play. i got back up to the front where the bar was and waited there. finally manson came on stage and i was crowded at the spot i was at. it was amazing i screamed as loud as i could and started freaking out and bryan probably thought i was crazy lmao. that was like the best moment of my life lol. i wish i could have met him it would have been so much more amazing :)

comments

comment to kirstie

Goodjob XD i love your poem. it totally describes you. you are always there to help and hold people together even at worst of times for you.

Full moon me poem

I am a triangle
Odd and bold
I’m here to make a statement
To change lives around me
And the way people think
I am an abstract painting
Weird and different
From structure and guidelines
of everyday life
I stand out in a crowd
Of people with simple minds
And scrutinizing eyes


-Renee Knockeart

my favorite poem

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year that Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.

- poem from the book "Perks of being a wallflower"

life right now

Life lately is going okay. im getting by. my daddy just recently moved to texas for work and we all miss him dearly. he aggrivated me all the time and nagged me but i miss it. he used to be home all day everyday. he calls everyday to talk to us at night so we can share how eachothers day went. im getting used to him not being home all the time. it kinda sucks not only do i miss him but i have no life. i have to help take care of the children becuase my mom works fulltime during tax season so basically the only day i have for myself is my college class on tuesdays and sundays, now i know how my mother feels during tax season lol not a day to herself.

It seems that everyone close to me lately moves away or lives to far away to begin with. all three of my very best friends arent gonna be around me so much. my friend Richie lives all the way in Harrison twp. and he barely makes time for his friends anymore because he is soooo much into his girlfriend, my friend lucas was a forign exchanged student and has to go back to brazil febuaray 28th i will probably cry when he leaves we have grown super close, and lastly but deffinantly not least my friend terah is going to chipawa valley now. God do i miss her, she lived with us for a wile and i got used to sharing my room and such, but now she is gone. i miss the crazy weird things we used to do and the stupid retarted fights we got into, more like discusions with harsh language and name calling haha, about things like the twilight books and dexter